A lot of people have really great relationships with their families.  They're constantly spending time together, enjoying each others company.  I have to say that I'm part of that group, even though the family I'm referring to isn't necessarily my biological family.  I'm not talking about my mother and father or my aunts and uncles.  My family is, and has been for a while I think, my friends.

I don't want to be misconstrued here.  I love my family very much, and I know that they love me.  We just don't fit well together, and for the longest time I wanted to become a part of that.  I wanted to be someone who could lean on their parents for support and strength, and, especially as of late, I've realized that it's a losing battle.  We are different.  Too different.  There's drama.  Too much drama.  Stress, pain, betrayal...and while this may be typical of most families, I've realized that with everything in life, you have a choice.  And I'm choosing to not put up with it anymore.

Over the past few months, I have begun to choose my happiness over others happiness, something I always thought was incredibly selfish.  But I'm finding it's actually the key to success, especially as a music composer.  I have to take care of myself first, because nobody else is going to.  However, I know I cannot do this alone.  Life in general is a very lonely journey, and if you ever happen to stumble upon people you feel like you can always lean on, then you must not take advantage of them.  You have to embrace them into your life and let them embrace you into yours.  And the people who will not support you, the people who will not understand you, you can't let them take up your energy, even if those people are your own flesh and blood.

To quote one of my new favorite artists Miike Snow, "I won't waste your time with my revelation."  I'm tired of wasting time. 

Sorry to be a downer.  Hey...how about if I throw something new one the website?  Yeah?  Okay, I'll update the News Feed in a bit.  There.  All better.